just because!

So, I am really irritated at how my paper is posting to my blog....I try to fix it and all it does is delete. So with that said, I promise it is in MLA format, and hope it can be read the way it is meant.  I worked my tail off on this final paper, just pray it pays off! 
I just want to write my own reflection, for myself, just to be writing, I will write my englilsh reflection later.  I have truly enjoyed my first semester of college, and have enjoyed being in this english class.  I have met some awesome YOUNG people who I hope and pray do wonderful throughout their education.  Best wishes and prayers with you all! I may have waited til almost 30 to get my education, but it is never too late. 
I truly believe God brings you through situations to be able to grow as a person towards his will for your life.  Me personally, I have been through so many obstacles, as I know we all have our story, but tragic has hit me hard throughout life.  I have had days to wear I didn't think I could continue, but God and God alone has given me the courage to do so.  God has supported me when no one else was there.  I want to share something that I wrote one year after my son passed away:

Today not only do I celebrate..but I also mourn. I celebrate Nicholas' first Heavenly birthday. that he is an Angel with the Lord. I celebrate all the memories I had with him, all the smiles and laughters he showed. I celebrate the Gift that God has given me. I celebrate the testimony God has allowed me to have. I celebrate all the tears..we miss him. Nicholas' life was a celebration...but today I mourn...I mourn because he won't have anymore days here on earth...I wont have anymore smiles or laughters here on earth with him..I mourn because my gift has been taken from me...it doesn't seem like a year. I mourn because I have a testimony like I do. but I celebrate it because I want to share it! I mourn because this was my child...my gift...that was taken because of a rare heart disease. I mourn because I have to cry. life of loosing a child is hard. I celebrate making it through a year...this has been the hardest year I have ever had in my life. I see children growing all year and it hurts. and I wonder why me..but I know God has his purpose..I just have to trust it. Nicholas was an angel from the beginning...he gave me so much love as well as others...he is missed greatly. But I celebrate because I am a survivor. I am a survivor of loosing a child.. I am a survivor because of God's love. Without the Love I wouldn't be here. I celebrate God saying to me everyday...you have the strength to get up and face the world...now go. I have done it. Life hasn't been any easier..everyday is just like the first..every morning that day replays in my head...everyday is the same. but I have gotten through a year...and I thank to Lord for that! today I celebrate the life and death of Nicholas Alexander High 1/31/09-9/21/09. Forever missed and loved..but foever in the arms of the Lord.

Now the reason I am sharing this is because if God has given me the strength to get through all the things I have been through, and I am still continuing towards his will, there is nothing that can stop anyone from their dreams.  Just have to have a little faith.  It will go a long way!  So, today, I continue to celebrate many things.  I am celebrating my life that God has given me!  I am celebrating my first semester of college!  Its over! I am celebrating all the stress headaches, the late nights studying, the weekends taken to do homework, precious time with my children gone because of schoolwork. I am celebrating my struggle as a parent, wife, student, daughter, and follower of God's will !  Its all a celebration!  It is meant to be!  Another chapter in my life!